I'm not entirely sure where this will lead, but I feel, in many ways, a blog is well overdue. Something to get thoughts out on in a productive manner without judgement of a sort of stream of conscious.
There are many subjects I'd like to touch on. Mainly just a life story in blog form, I suppose. Perhaps one day it will turn into a physical book, but perhaps I always think a little bit too high with goals. But that's what goals are, right? Aim high so that your life is enriched with optimism and forever guessing what may happen next.
Now begs the question of where to start. I feel every blogger starts out with one of those, "Hey followers! This is me!" But I don't really feel the urge to do so. I think you, if anyone discovers this, will find out plenty through the many posts I will write. As a hopeless romantic, there will be countless about that (love). I wrote on my phone ideas of what I could write about, and they all were "letters" of sorts. Letters to past lovers, ones I broke and those who broke me, my parents, childhood friends, and even to my cat, Luna.
Living in Los Angeles has really been an eye opener for me in many ways. Now, I have settled on the idea of not "discovering" myself like I felt was pressured to do by that cliche that hovers around our society. I'm aiming to create myself. It's a new idea that has been suggested to me, and I feel writing about my past, present, and future, will help define this clarity I seek. Songwriting only allows glimpses of this clarity seep through, so I thought by writing more, freely, I will fully encompass this idea of creating oneself.
I'm trying to be a better person, daughter, friend, lover, soul, and musician. I'm trying to be honest, loyal, vigilant, and curious. I'm trying to be my true self I fear I may have lost long ago along the way of life. Whether that was through some experience that trapped me in a shell, or just by allowing friendships and society mold me into something I was not... who knows. The purpose of this is to allow you to see my honesty and humbleness of what I have done in my lifetime and how I reflect on it. Perhaps maybe you have experienced similar events as well, and it may resonate with you and aide you on your own journey to the pursuit of happiness.
It's definitely going to be quite the adventure. I hope you're ready. Lord knows I certainly am.